Emosi

A person full of emotions.
That is me but sometimes emotions overwhelm me.
That's what most people fear of me.
I might get so overwhelmed then I get sick.
make foolish decisions and most likely, regret it.

Somehow I can't trust anymore.
A few, yes but not all.
Not like before.
I can forgive but I can't simply fall for those pathetic reasons.
It is actually a bad thing if I hold back my tears.
A door is now seal and no key fits the lock.
None of this is our faults,
This is just some misunderstanding we failed to tolerate
But this one hurts.
It hurt so deep that I can still feel the pains.

I am stuck in the middle
Not knowing
which one to choose
or to sacrifice for
I can't feel emotions inside of me
That moments haunt me again.
How long would it be this time?