Saturday, August 29, 2015

Explain

It began with a deep sorrow I had because of my result.
I never had so much frustrations in myself because all this while my results were always perfect so when my SPM result was not as good as before,my morale dropped so low.

But then, I refused to let my result to define me. I was sad, so sad but I refused to acknowledge my feelings so I began to search anything that maybe suited my result.

So I searched, called and mailed any chances I have. Not keeping my hopes high, I just waited .
Then the email came and told me they agreed to accept me as their student. I was thrilled and called my mom. I had a long thought about this and also discussed the matter with my dad.

'Life is a gamble' someone told me that.

At first, my application was rejected from the university because I did not fulfill their criteria, then when the offer came in, they offered to fill the blanks that I have so I fit into the criteria and became one of the students. In other word, they offered rather different from what I first apply but I can reapply when I completed that particular course. So yeah why not.

I felt like a hipster but then why not go crazy while you are young and experience things you never imagined to do. Believe me, I am one of those typical Malaysian who wanted to study in UK, US but then life stirs me into a different direction which I believe and In shaa Allah will strengthen me with Allah and Islam. May success lies ahead me.

I am happy and also scared. I am going on Monday and I bet you can imagine how am i feeling right now. Just promise me that you will include me in your prayers. It is more than enough, I dont know whether I can still do this in China but I'll try.

Till then.


Sunday, August 23, 2015

8 days

A week to go when midnight comes

Friends, thank you for coming and the gifts


Wednesday, August 5, 2015

26 days

I wish I could pull off writing spontaneous in Malay as good as I write in English.
Maybe because I'm used to writing facts in Malay that made me less expressive in Malay.
I always refer English as my Romance language . Cheesy though

Anyway, 26 days left
Well things is going well so far
Except for Malaysian ringgit, which left me in shock just now
I think my Chinese is doing okay but still in need to be polish more
Then next I'm thinking on how to present myself to my future collegemates
Is it the carefree self or newly invented modest self.
I'm not being fake or anything but I want this to be my turning point
To be a better self
Why travel if not Letting yourself undergo changes, right?